I'm 22 years old and i've never had sex before. Despite this, I am a wanton. I masturbate 4ish times a week, even gets to every night twice. I have a massager but I really, really want to be penetrated.

Now I am completely divided on this. I do like the idea of having my first proper penetration with someone else, but I also just want to get all this pain/virgin BS out of the way so I can enjoy sex more on my first time. I also am incredibly lonely and I'd like a proper substitute ;P

What do you guys think? Yay or nay? I'm so divided because of all this stigma and hush hush about virginity at my age.